always. forever. whatever.

May peace be upon you~

How will you react if you have a best friend since you know from forever but ever since you parted ways and graduated high school you only had time to occasionally keep in touch with her but one day a social worker comes into your office (when you are at the peak of your career, mind you) and told you, your best friend had met with an accident? Along with that, she had left you with a legal custody of her two daughters? What would you do?


(The Accidental Mother - Rowan Coleman) That's what happened to Sophie when Carrie died. the story has flashbacks of when both of them are younger, bringing me along what their friendship was like before and after they finish school. Ykno the naivete of 13 years old; how grlfrens are forever and all the promises. Its in there. Ykno how people change and drifted apart some time in life because of different priorities? Its in there. Sometimes there's a part of us that just wants to looks back and wish everything was the same? Its in there. And there's sometimes when we step back from all our drama and chaos and just sense that familiar presence that has bring us along where we are now? Yup, its there.

In this story, friendship is more then taking advantage of people just to have fun and joke and laugh and fool about. There's regret of taking things (or in this case Sophie, thinking that Carrie will always be around for her) for granted. It's about respecting others' wishes too and honoring our promises. And agreeing to see their point of views doesn't mean we agree with them, just means we are listening.

Always.Forever.Whatever. - Powerful words full of promises. Cheesy yet it sounds familiar. Why's that so? Allah knows.....


Thanks for last week korang(: TGQ's♥

If you could wake up as anyone tomorrow, who would it be?

I would like to wake up as someone's adored, sheltered, pampered wife and the mother to his children. Haha! @_@

Ask me here.

my type of 'chicken soup' for the soul

May peace be upon you! (:

I miss dancing2!! I think I wannna memorize all the routines in this story and dance my feet off when I can finally 'master' all of it! HEE :D but then again, their moves are so hawwwt ~ do i even dare? haha!




Wallahu'alam.

january daze

May peace be upon you (:

When you've met someone..
They either leave you with an imprinted impression or not.
The imprinted ones are usually the ones that leaves footprints and a aching in your heart.

Its only a month, yet there's so many footprints.



I hope this isn't a real goodbye. Allah knows best. ♥

a stepping-stone

May peace be upon you(:

I am not in the running to become the best Trainee anymore. =( I would be lying if I said I didn't wish I could become one ;p This might sound weird but a part of me actually felt relieved that I failed. The trying to make it on time for retest was a nightmare though! Remind me to wake up and and leave the house before the clock strikes 7! I am so KS these days. Tsk!!

In a way some of the suspense has been cleared and its putting springs in my walk! LOL! Other reasons might be because the weekends are near and I find myself fidgeting for it to start. (:



I appreciate you believing in me ♥

a banking chapter

May peace be upon you :D

I'm currently still reeling from today's event. With so many twirls and ink pads and cursive handwriting its enough to make me go like this ----> %)

Attire-wise; it helps to know I'm in the same boat as others. Wallahu'alam

my pri.5 best friend

May peace be upon you.

All the things stated here are subjected to change for people change. This is what I know now and some of them I have only just found out, so Aisyah, this one for you

Let me tell you 10 things abt my bestfriend. ;


10. 10 years ago; We were 10 years old - We were so young; Today she's 20. may all the happiness be with you! :D

9. Our interests don't always overlap one another-She's the one who has been into make-up, pink, fashion and girly side when I first know her. We used to be like total opposites; short-tall, pink-blue, girlish-boyish. When I say total opposites, its total opposite.

8. Now I think we have both neutralised each other. (Missing someone can make you do the things that they used to do in front or with you ykno?) We are both DramaQueens now. Ta-da! Specializes in our own stream(: Berdiri pon da nak samer tinggi. (noooooo!!)

7. There has been a lot of fights. Almost break-up fights, cry-buckets-for-days fights, dont-wish-to-talk-to-you kinda fights... erm, etc? No, we don't do cat-fight unless its associated with pillow and FUN and our prime target liyanna..

6. Most times she likes to listen. She shares stuff but there are specifics.

5. She's afraid of ykno....*CHAK CHAK CHAK*.I've never seen her run scared before though. Maybe one day ah :D

4. She visits the library often these days. LIKE OMG! She used to tease me a lot for being a bookworm! Who's the nerd now? ;p haha

3. She likes to experiment her looks especially her hair.(perm, straighten, changed hair partition, dyed, name it- she did it)

2. Some of our circle of friends are the same but we each have other friends we could rely on when we got sick of each other. thank God!! CHEY!! HAHAH

1. I don't know what else to say except that I love her very much because and despite of all this. And I wish for her everything that I could ever wish for my own siblings.

Okay, yu may strangle me when we meet but please dont choke me I need my voice. Hwahwahwahwah.k, im not crying/bye.

feeling yellow

May peace be upon you.



The things you are about to read are not meant for those whom are multi-tasking with food in their hands or those who are greatly in touch with their sense of 'disgust'.



So Don't tell me I didn't warn you! =P



I have, freaking, diarrhoea!!!


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!


Its all yellow and orange and most of the other times just plain muddy and squishy.




I have lost count the times I visited the toilet for the past two days (inclusive of today).

And yknow diarrhoea can stink. oooooh yeah. really bad, too.

There I've said it.



My poor toilet bowl.


It looks like I might have to rest in on my friday-holiday day.


great. -.- let's hope I'll be better by next week. wish me luck :D

\ACC me at home, anyone?

loved and blessed

may peace be upon US

wokay, so this is a way overdue-d post...

10.10.10 ; I only had 2 hrs of sleep- thanks to the blabbering Aisyah(whom left me alone for lalaland at 4++am), the nap-should-be-about-20minutes-only-and-what-not-lecture from Liyanna(who wakes up around 4++am) and the unfortunate thing that happened to Salwa's stomach and health(at frigging 5++am!!!) and the bloody taxi that came after almost 1 and a half hr (almost 7am by then). Inspite of all the kecoh-ness, all in all, it was a real good fun to have a short getaway from home and be surronded with friends and our powerful secondary days memories to reminisce into. Thanks papa, for letting me go. (:

Of course, I do not need to tell you, my heartfelt thanks to them (Liyanna, Aisyah, Salwa, Zammir, Raihan and Fhaz) for their effort and goodwill. FYI, Zammir, we played yur domino game till I-don't-know-what-time. HAHA

Muchhh Lurrrrveeee (:

correction

may peace be upon you

I can't exactly remember whether its the Thursday or Friday's lesson. Anyway, on that day, they were drawing sketches of raw and hard-boiled chicken egg with the shells on and after both eggs are cut open or peeled off respectively (a before/after sketch thingy). At the end of the session, they were each allowed to peel a hard-boiled quail egg and eat it in class.

"Teacher Na-dyaaa,... very nice." Agnes said.

"I know Teacher very nice!!"

"Noooo... Teacherrr, the egg is very nice."

Can't help it but smile, ey? (:

insecure at ten, sheltered at twenty

May peace be upon us.

From the eve of my birthday to the end of my birthday itself, I felt sheltered, taken cared of and loved. Its the little things, still. Although, I must admit there was a point of time in the past where I'm always unsatisfied. This time, I'm just glad those who mattered to me remembered.. So Thanks, so very much (:

Anyhoos, on the official day I turned 20 falls on a Saturday which is very, very, very rare (whose isnt?) HAHA. A certain person told me to dress up and wear someth "grand" then he brought me to the zoo. You can guess my reaction. Let's just say I'm very glad I was adamant enough to change my shoes before going off. ;p

The funny thing is wearing a dress still made me do some crazy stunts, like climbing a giant-tortoise statue, waving my arms at random while trying to decide a pose for a picture and holding a cut-out chinese ghost hand poster, which awarded me some out-loud comments from a variety (of age/gender) passerbys (tourists/visitors) and curious looks. (takpe yer. biasaaa)

Hmmmm, still!, i like the zoo-hat! Dora-the-explorer ganjue. ;D

maybe growing up means to learn from our past, appreciating what we had, what was taken and be thankful of what we have.

Wallahu a'lam bisawab.

the back-up plan

may peace be upon you.

I'm only 20 not 21. Birthdays come with a lot of things and one of them is "Being expected to be someone whom sometimes you yourself aren't ready to be".

My 20 (well, almost) years of plan was to to see the world (or atleast go out and travel alone or with a good friend) before settling down to reality and adulthood. I wanted to put aside worries of joblessness and the feeling of being useless and ingrate for a little while and cherish the freedom of completing my diploma, a baby-step-study-stop sure, but still ?

I just wanted a break from school, work, interviews and the "Hey, what are you doing now?" thingys. Its depressing. Weird, they say you'll only get depressing birthdays when you're 40 and experiencing menopause or 'transitions of life'. I'm 20 years early. whoa. hurrah for me.

Time for a back-up plan.

moments like these

may peace be upon you

thanks to Nazura, Raini and their cousin (Darwish's mum); I get to meet Darwish. With all my adik sedares growing up, I guess I'll just look forward to my anak sedares now (and others' anak sedares. So cute can?=o )

my thanks again to the photographer of the day (now her album is flooded with urmhmmme-.-) but this is such an endearing moment. he chose not to feed me though! -.-

♥

one of those "my mum" moments

peace be upon you

my mummy: "Beli kitchen untuk Nial! Beli kitchen!"

me: "kitchen, kitchen, keychain!"

HEHE ;D

second raya with love

May peace be upon you.

After a year of not raya-ing together, the secondary school sisters went for it on the 25th Sept 2010!

Only went for three houses, but what-the-helmet, the company and the quality time spent matters more (: Along with "penyeri" event: Aisyah's sister, mom and nephew -Aniq and the performers of the Gek Poh Community Center.

The more the merrier, of course, the ones who made the event possible and plausible: Salwa, Zammir, Raihan, Fhaz and the inspiring: Ismail Haron! xD

Its good ^^

(still missing a person. is this gonna be permanent?)

postponed

May peace be upon you.

The class that I've been looking forward to all of this month has been postponed to the 23rd of OCtober. which is like soooo longggg ): i tak sanggup! There's a malay saying, "kalau tunggu lama2, nanti diambil orang" but in my case its a 'thing' uh hahaha; So if you wait too long for something, there's a chance it won't happen.

So bummed. =/

I have been receiving a few offers lately. I have been hearing advices that goes something like this: Go with what you are passionate in, what's your interest?Frankly, to answer that, I like a lot of things but what I'm passionate about might be to learn something new and be good at it. What is the It? is the real brainwrecker. So I guess I really have to perform Istiharah for help. With the schedule/routine I have now, I'm too happy to stress myself in doing that.. =/ bad huh. Today is the first time, I made my PY1B laugh at me as a whole. Even though the joke's on me, it feels good to hear them laugh. In a month's time, I might not even be among them at all.

a necessary but painful goodbye

may peace be upon you.

painful yet pretty
its a knife-deep feeling
but so wonderful to see
to see you taking your first steps
hear you asking whats next
maybe i just need time to savour this grip
maybe i'll feel better after a kiss
i figured i'll be emotional about this
i dint know it'll be this hard
so i tell myself be patient
to see you off with a cheery wave
for i know i'll have to let you go
someday, you'll have to find your own way.
turn your head around and see
remember me and the things we did sometime
for as sure as your feet would bring
thats how full my heart will brim
these tears i shed behind
of missing you and the joy you gave.
said your goodbye and thank yous.
well i'm here because of you.


hugsandkisses for my K1s and 2.

My dearest buggerits, through all the months we've been through, watching each of you coming out of your shell; even as I write this down, I can see some of your faces in my head. I'll miss you.

Just have to remember;
1) We belong to Allah s.w.t.
2) When we love, we are learning to share; and sharing is caring.

SubhanAllah.

i can be your playmate

May peace be upon you.

I'll remember this day: 23/09/2010

I'm looking for a friend to-day

Will you be my friend and play?

Have a little talk with meeeee-ee.

Build a tower, 1! 2! 3!

Clap our hands, heel and toe!

Join our hands and round we go~

Wave goodbye and thats the end.

Time to find another friend ~

If you asked, was the class messy during the song. It was. Did they run around? Well, some did. Did they have fun? I think they did. So it was fun. like really. I wished I had done this sooner.

I think I'll miss them like crazy. But they'll have to go someday.

SEMPAT!

May peace be upon you

Lampu lap lip berkilauan
Baju pon wow! kalah mak pengantin
Kalau betul nak bermaaf-maafan
Datanglah rumah, muka tunjukkan

Salam Aidilfitri semua!
Its the official night for Syawal 1431 Masihi! (Raya Aidilfitri 2010)

back to last-minute house-cleaning. T.t

wishy washy

May peace be upon you.

The best gift, though, would be a full minute of your precious, busy time, to say a prayer for me wishing me forgiveness from Allah, thinking about my best of health, longevity, happiness and everything nice. You see, I know you are all very busy people, but it'll be really grand, if you could dedicate this day, even if its a minute of it to remember me and wish me well even if I don't know it. You have my advance thanks and jazakAllah, may Allah reward you with goodness.

1 month to 2-0.