this childhood of theirs

May Peace Be Upon Us.



After eons of days of Missing In Action, I am back!









WHOOHOO!!







(ok laugh)

It's such an eye-opener how kids wear their expressions on their sleeves. The five year olds I know has not yet developed a complicated mix of emotions (or developed a mask yet). To sum up their feelings it all depends whether they like or dislike or/and when they think something is right (thus, they agree) or when they think that particular something is wrong (and thus, disagree with complains, whines or even sulking).

It touched me to see that most of them are able to care for their friends. Most days, I was let on to see their self-impression of others affect the way they communicate after a fight (atleast one became more wary of the other/s) or a happy incident (they became closer).

I guess, in some ways, I'm glad I could be the cause of those happy incident and likewise if I could intervene and prevent a fight. it's rewarding that way. Yet there are still those days, where it's so hard to reach them or assure them that it's okay, that its a small matter, or that crying won't solve anything.

It seems that I had needed all these lessons from my five-year olds to confront the one person that I might have neglected long ago; me.

My hope now is to finish off this year with them and wish with all my heart they would remember me, not because of my looks or appearance but through good values that they've picked up in my class. Wallahualam bissawab.

a certain seven years old

May peace be upon us.

After seeing too many tears in the first week of school, it's really nice to see more smiling faces before the week came to an end. // Almost as nice as seeing a seven-years-old bowl and hit a spare at the eleventh hour. (:

Funny, they say, laughter is the best medicine, they dint mention the cramps yur face will have later on ;p especially after seeing someone trying to dance-off to the para-para beat. hilarious, i tell yu. xD Have to thank 'F' for that. (:

a roller-coaster ride emotion. and then my short revenge (=
oh, sweet justice! (;

wallahualam

typical

may peace be upon you.










I'm getting the same feeling I have when all my friends decided to join NPCC, and I looked at that CCA grp and wanted smth different. This is the same feeling when I see half of the grls my age fell for the same guy and I looked away and want smone else. This is also the feeling I have to choose not to watch popular game shows on tv just because all of them does.

This feeling jumps and claws at me like an irritating bugger. I know I can choose to be not typical. but I can't seem to shake of the familiar feeling of wanting a different dream. (Not to mention, the years I would have to spend. what if i have children of my own?)

It's all written isn't it.. I've tried to get it. could or could not, i guess i'll cross the bridge when I come to it. still, a different dream sounds as lovely as sour cream.

gottakeepbelieving.

not too hot not too cold

may peace be upon you (:

the weather was nice today,
actually great for laying ard in bed, esp in the morning.

well, actually, i wanna boasts i had a nice day today.

okaybye *catsmile*

prepare for awesomeness

may peace be upon us (:


KARATE KiD WAS AWESOME! Hyakdush!
translation: I din't get I-want-my-money-back feeling. (:it's good)

Even tho I went brrr-oke today, I had the I-want-to-watch-this-again feeling for this still. This is so rare of me. The only show that I can still remember I had this kind of feeling was "My name is Khan" which is like three months ago. HAHAH. Usually, its the oh-yeah-watched-that feeling. instead, I wanna watch it again! Again, again! ((; Maybe its the company (; familiar but different (= ♥family

also, its set in China. a country i din't know i missed (;

the show brings such a heartwarming feeling... imissChina(':

wallahualam bissawab(:

thirteenth ♥

may peace be upon you (;

meet ikan Selar kuning/Yellow-mellow/Purple fin/Blue-face/Stripey which is an angel-fish shaped kite that *Bucuk and I named after we bought it at Gek Poh some time ago. The first time we tried, it flew! (but went down soon after. i think its because the string was too short.)

as for our second attempt at the same place but of a different day, which was today, it FAILED. HAHA


had fun, pretending to fly it though (;

old 'tanah kayu'

may peace be upon us.

It's been awhile since I went to an old place of Mum's. I used to hate gg there. It used to be boring; not much toys, too many shops, stuffy, no entertainment and most importantly no place to seat while mummy went shopping, a definite no-no place for a kid like me xD ... but I like it there now (:Imma Changed Person xD huhu)

Thanks to Pinggan Licin. ;p

The friday, I went to sch, watched "MadeOfHonor", super-hilariously yet touching of some sort. the familiar environment brings back nostalgic memories,too.
But I'm writing on fresh papers as I go. I'll survive(:

Thanks to Bucuk ;p

(:SC,uoystraeh)

let me hear this

may peace be upon us.

meant to be and written
i don't want a love song
and this is one of the reason
a romance turns wrong

when the sun shine
i don't want to be gone
like a lost kite
heartwreck on the shore

the last thing i need
someone to take me higher
the last thing i wish
someone to drop me that much faster

in this heart
a beautiful melody
it longs to sing
fly with the wind

if only they knew
what sets me free
maybe we could skip around all this
but it wasnt meant to be

so i look up and prayed
a rainbow will save the day.

if you say, bby grl it'll be okay

i'm telling you, its not enough.
jack, someone said a grl needs 3As
but sometimes, i think

a little of fairy dust* won't hurt.



'nuff said(:

the malay seminar

peace be upon you.

i have no husband yet i have 75 kids.
the good thing is i dont have to have them for 24 hrs.
the bad thing despite having to allow them to improve on their communication /language skills, i'm responsible to implement 'jati diri' into them as not only a citizen of SG but a malay citizen of sg.

jati diri sebagai seorang melayu.

Jika diteguh oleh orang tua "kau anak kurang ajar"
Ada tak rasa terguris hati hingga tak sedap lena?

i saw freddy

may peace be upon you.

i don't like horror movies. but a certain *bucuk go and dragged me to Cathay to watch Nightmare on Elm Street.

the good thing is mihhtiwemitdnepsottegi.
but the bad thing is I creep myself out (more than usual),
rofl.

anyway, movie updates,
I WANT TO WATCH KARATE KID W MY SISTER NEXT MONDAY!!
LETS ROCK THIS ISLAND PARADISE WHOOHOO!!!

coincides

may peace be upon us.

I rmbr my wish almost eight years ago.
That wish gave me the courage to chop my hair off.
(it was very short okay. slope haircut. oo)

Now, I'm all dolled up with henna on my hand.


Still waiting....













The question is, how much longer will you make me wait?
















alhamdulilah majlis pernikahan dan persandingan Cik Ifa dgn Uncle Banam da selesai. tunggu abg Leng den kak Ila punya turn, next. HAHA cepat nyer masa berlalu. Rasa macam semalam kite smue masih main dgn trolley Atuk. IloveyouAtuk.

first dive

peace be upon us.

If only life is like a blog post entry. You can delete stuff, post up stuff and best of all hit the sign out button and forget about it for a while till next time. Then again, life is a book full of chapters; when one chapter ends, the other begins.............................................

its just so complicated smtimes,

abu dhabi doo

may peace be upon us.

Caught "sex and the city 2" with yvonne and hashanah/

IT WAS SO LMAO BECAUSE NONE OF US WATCHED PART 1

...
AND WE ARRIVED LATE. LOL
THOUGH THERE'S CENSORED STUFF (M18 dok)
THE  STORYLINE WAS ALRIGHT

WORTH IT FOR A WEEKEND MOVIE
COZ ITS 2HRS AND A HALFF HAHA

REMINDED ME OF TGQS.
WONDERed WOULD WE BECOME LIKE THAT IN FUTURE.

HAHAHAH

honey in these pots

May peace be Upon US (:

LIKE FINALLY. A DATE WITH THIS BUNCH OF GORGEOUS GRLS.

IT'S SURPRISING, I HALF THOUGHT WE WOULD BE AWKWARD NOW
BUT WE WEREN'T...




ON THE CONTRARY, I THINK WE WOULD
READILY AGREE ON A FULL DAY OUTING NEXT TIME.



*smiles*





In no particular order - 7years ago;
FROM FIRST-FRIEND AT SEC 1 ORIENTATION CAMP;GUGA.
FIRST MALAY FRIEND AT SJAB; ROZY
MY SEC 1 CLASSMATE; SHARIFFFFF (hehe)
THE PERSON WHO SAT BESIDE ME IN SEC 1 FIRST ASSEMBLY; USHA

TO THE YEARS WE HAD SHARING OUR DAYS AND GROWING UP IN SEC SCH
(although fragmented;)



TO NOW
(vainpots eh?)





THINGS ARE SO DIFFERENT NOW.
YET, YOU MAKE IT SEEM JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS.

I WAS ONLY 12 WHEN I FIRST KNOW YOU.





damn. I feel old.
haha

saya perempuan, awak lelaki

May Peace Be Upon Us

My circle of friends is starting to get a little wider.
But true enough, with more friends, the more difficult it is to stay on everyone's likes.

This is Han Jun and our msn convo box. Look at his DP and mine.
Like two different worlds. alien and out of space.

I'M KIDDING YAW! HAHAHA

♥ differences.

something that distinguish us.

kind words and beautiful nightmare

May peace be upon us,

SOON THE TOUGH IS GOING TO GET GOING
I HAVEN USE THIS MUCH FACIAL EXPRESSION EVERSINCE
"An enemy of the people" Petra, much?
TOMORROW MIGHT GIVE ME AN ANSWER FOR THE MYSTERY

LIKE ALL NEW THINGS, THEY SEEM SCARIER AND HARDER
THESE WORDS ARE THE ONES THAT KEEP ME GOING THESE DAYS;

She our one la. You all don't have/

Bye! See you tomorrow! I love you!

THIS ONE, HOWEVER,

Ms Nadiyah, you very pretty

PRETTY EH?

SOMEONE ONCE SAYS THE PRETTIEST PEOPLE ON EARTH 

ARE THE ONES THAT CAN CONTROL THEIR ANGER.

WAIT TILL THEY HEAR ME ROAR.

BET I'M THEIR NIGHTMARE THEN.

TSK.

dropped dead

May peace be upon you...

I'm feeling what I'm feeling at that point of time.

I'm so _________ I want to throw up.

Again, I'm not brave. I'm just a little less afraid than others.

....

I survived holding a 50kg snake for a whole 2 minutes.

Maybe I'll survive a room full of those buggerits for a day tomorrow.

& the next day. & the next... & the next.

Wishful thinking.

Ya Allah, where else could I turn to?

.. and i'm not a terrorist

May peace be upon you (:

i wasnt really at peace the last few days.
hurhur.excited, much? ask the heart.

Anyway,

Not a typical bollywood love story but still
SUKER! ROFL!

MY NAME IS NADIYAH, I'M A MUSLIM AND I'M NOT A TERRORIST.

WHAT GOOD IS VIOLENCE AND HATRED????

Penat tau main benci2, marah2 ni smue.

HATING AND BEING ANGRY AND STAYING IN THE 'Mrajuk' SIDE
DRAINS THE MENTAL ENERGY, NO?
HAHA DONT LET ME GET STARTED ON THE aftermath OF CRYING.
-.-

TO HOLD MYSELF OFF FROM NOT TALKING TO Someone

 I CARE ABOUT BECAUSE OF ANGER/IRRITATION

NOT EXACTLY MY TYPE OF STAMINA

Kan Syahhhh?
*roll eyes* 

HHAHA

STAMINA TO JOG/RUN/STAND FOR LONG HOURS - MAYBE STILL CAN LA

(BUT RUSTY, giler xD)

I THINK SONIYA JEHAN PLAYED HER ROLE TO A 'T' (;

WE SHALL OVERCOME SOMEDAY(=

DEEP IN MY HEART, I DO BELIEVE.

BLOODY BRILLIANT.

heheh.

---------------

TODAY I HAVE A LIFE =x

xD

(PADAHAL SPENT 6 HRS IN YISHUN -NORTHPOINT)

HAHAHAH

Bolehla tu yerrr~~

(:

to love my own so thoroughly it might hurt

May peace be upon You (:

HASANAH aka SCANDAL aka THE ZOMBIE! VISITED ME YESTERDAY.
FELT QUITE BAD AGAIN BECAUSE DINT MANAGE TO SEND HER TO BUSSTOP.
AFTER A DURATION OF 1 WEEK BEING COOPED UP AT HOME
SOMEONE VISITED ME! YAYNESS!

AND THIS EVENING IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL, INSYAALLAH MY MUM WOULD LET ME OUT TO GRAD NITE.
I'M STILL FEELING A LITTLE JITTERY FACING THE WORLD WITH THIS 'NEW FACE'.
MAYBE IT WON'T BE ACCEPTED. MAYBE IT'LL FREAK PPLE OUT BUT I GOT TO TRY

NO BETTER DAY TO START THEN TODAY, YES? YES!
"A loser is afraid of winning, but a winner is not afraid of losing."
& ONE THING THAT I AM TRYING MOST NOT TO BE, IS A LOSER (;

TAKE A CHANCE. MAKE A RISK.
PRAY FOR ME AS I HAVE PRAYED FOR YOU.
BEST WISHES (:



med time. owh yu frigging doctors. =.=

someday we'll know

May peace be upon US.

AR'NT THEY JUST THE CUTEST ?
I ESPECIALLY PICKED OUT THOSE WELL-DRESSED PETS BECAUSE THEY ARE SO DARN ADORABLE IN THOSE COSTUMES. GRR.
OF COURSE THERE ARE STILL OTHERS THAT I DINT INCLUDE.
NOT BECAUSE THEY LACK OF ADORABLE FACTOR. NONONO.
THERE'S JUST TOO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM (:

btw

I thought you said I wasn't heartless.
I thought you said I wasn't heartless.
I thought you said I wasn't heartless.
I thought you said I wasn't heartless.



I thought wrong.

it'sokay. (':


(Pic: Anna from ShamanKing)