my pri.5 best friend

May peace be upon you.

All the things stated here are subjected to change for people change. This is what I know now and some of them I have only just found out, so Aisyah, this one for you

Let me tell you 10 things abt my bestfriend. ;


10. 10 years ago; We were 10 years old - We were so young; Today she's 20. may all the happiness be with you! :D

9. Our interests don't always overlap one another-She's the one who has been into make-up, pink, fashion and girly side when I first know her. We used to be like total opposites; short-tall, pink-blue, girlish-boyish. When I say total opposites, its total opposite.

8. Now I think we have both neutralised each other. (Missing someone can make you do the things that they used to do in front or with you ykno?) We are both DramaQueens now. Ta-da! Specializes in our own stream(: Berdiri pon da nak samer tinggi. (noooooo!!)

7. There has been a lot of fights. Almost break-up fights, cry-buckets-for-days fights, dont-wish-to-talk-to-you kinda fights... erm, etc? No, we don't do cat-fight unless its associated with pillow and FUN and our prime target liyanna..

6. Most times she likes to listen. She shares stuff but there are specifics.

5. She's afraid of ykno....*CHAK CHAK CHAK*.I've never seen her run scared before though. Maybe one day ah :D

4. She visits the library often these days. LIKE OMG! She used to tease me a lot for being a bookworm! Who's the nerd now? ;p haha

3. She likes to experiment her looks especially her hair.(perm, straighten, changed hair partition, dyed, name it- she did it)

2. Some of our circle of friends are the same but we each have other friends we could rely on when we got sick of each other. thank God!! CHEY!! HAHAH

1. I don't know what else to say except that I love her very much because and despite of all this. And I wish for her everything that I could ever wish for my own siblings.

Okay, yu may strangle me when we meet but please dont choke me I need my voice. Hwahwahwahwah.k, im not crying/bye.

feeling yellow

May peace be upon you.



The things you are about to read are not meant for those whom are multi-tasking with food in their hands or those who are greatly in touch with their sense of 'disgust'.



So Don't tell me I didn't warn you! =P



I have, freaking, diarrhoea!!!


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!


Its all yellow and orange and most of the other times just plain muddy and squishy.




I have lost count the times I visited the toilet for the past two days (inclusive of today).

And yknow diarrhoea can stink. oooooh yeah. really bad, too.

There I've said it.



My poor toilet bowl.


It looks like I might have to rest in on my friday-holiday day.


great. -.- let's hope I'll be better by next week. wish me luck :D

\ACC me at home, anyone?

loved and blessed

may peace be upon US

wokay, so this is a way overdue-d post...

10.10.10 ; I only had 2 hrs of sleep- thanks to the blabbering Aisyah(whom left me alone for lalaland at 4++am), the nap-should-be-about-20minutes-only-and-what-not-lecture from Liyanna(who wakes up around 4++am) and the unfortunate thing that happened to Salwa's stomach and health(at frigging 5++am!!!) and the bloody taxi that came after almost 1 and a half hr (almost 7am by then). Inspite of all the kecoh-ness, all in all, it was a real good fun to have a short getaway from home and be surronded with friends and our powerful secondary days memories to reminisce into. Thanks papa, for letting me go. (:

Of course, I do not need to tell you, my heartfelt thanks to them (Liyanna, Aisyah, Salwa, Zammir, Raihan and Fhaz) for their effort and goodwill. FYI, Zammir, we played yur domino game till I-don't-know-what-time. HAHA

Muchhh Lurrrrveeee (:

correction

may peace be upon you

I can't exactly remember whether its the Thursday or Friday's lesson. Anyway, on that day, they were drawing sketches of raw and hard-boiled chicken egg with the shells on and after both eggs are cut open or peeled off respectively (a before/after sketch thingy). At the end of the session, they were each allowed to peel a hard-boiled quail egg and eat it in class.

"Teacher Na-dyaaa,... very nice." Agnes said.

"I know Teacher very nice!!"

"Noooo... Teacherrr, the egg is very nice."

Can't help it but smile, ey? (:

insecure at ten, sheltered at twenty

May peace be upon us.

From the eve of my birthday to the end of my birthday itself, I felt sheltered, taken cared of and loved. Its the little things, still. Although, I must admit there was a point of time in the past where I'm always unsatisfied. This time, I'm just glad those who mattered to me remembered.. So Thanks, so very much (:

Anyhoos, on the official day I turned 20 falls on a Saturday which is very, very, very rare (whose isnt?) HAHA. A certain person told me to dress up and wear someth "grand" then he brought me to the zoo. You can guess my reaction. Let's just say I'm very glad I was adamant enough to change my shoes before going off. ;p

The funny thing is wearing a dress still made me do some crazy stunts, like climbing a giant-tortoise statue, waving my arms at random while trying to decide a pose for a picture and holding a cut-out chinese ghost hand poster, which awarded me some out-loud comments from a variety (of age/gender) passerbys (tourists/visitors) and curious looks. (takpe yer. biasaaa)

Hmmmm, still!, i like the zoo-hat! Dora-the-explorer ganjue. ;D

maybe growing up means to learn from our past, appreciating what we had, what was taken and be thankful of what we have.

Wallahu a'lam bisawab.

the back-up plan

may peace be upon you.

I'm only 20 not 21. Birthdays come with a lot of things and one of them is "Being expected to be someone whom sometimes you yourself aren't ready to be".

My 20 (well, almost) years of plan was to to see the world (or atleast go out and travel alone or with a good friend) before settling down to reality and adulthood. I wanted to put aside worries of joblessness and the feeling of being useless and ingrate for a little while and cherish the freedom of completing my diploma, a baby-step-study-stop sure, but still ?

I just wanted a break from school, work, interviews and the "Hey, what are you doing now?" thingys. Its depressing. Weird, they say you'll only get depressing birthdays when you're 40 and experiencing menopause or 'transitions of life'. I'm 20 years early. whoa. hurrah for me.

Time for a back-up plan.

moments like these

may peace be upon you

thanks to Nazura, Raini and their cousin (Darwish's mum); I get to meet Darwish. With all my adik sedares growing up, I guess I'll just look forward to my anak sedares now (and others' anak sedares. So cute can?=o )

my thanks again to the photographer of the day (now her album is flooded with urmhmmme-.-) but this is such an endearing moment. he chose not to feed me though! -.-

♥

one of those "my mum" moments

peace be upon you

my mummy: "Beli kitchen untuk Nial! Beli kitchen!"

me: "kitchen, kitchen, keychain!"

HEHE ;D

second raya with love

May peace be upon you.

After a year of not raya-ing together, the secondary school sisters went for it on the 25th Sept 2010!

Only went for three houses, but what-the-helmet, the company and the quality time spent matters more (: Along with "penyeri" event: Aisyah's sister, mom and nephew -Aniq and the performers of the Gek Poh Community Center.

The more the merrier, of course, the ones who made the event possible and plausible: Salwa, Zammir, Raihan, Fhaz and the inspiring: Ismail Haron! xD

Its good ^^

(still missing a person. is this gonna be permanent?)

postponed

May peace be upon you.

The class that I've been looking forward to all of this month has been postponed to the 23rd of OCtober. which is like soooo longggg ): i tak sanggup! There's a malay saying, "kalau tunggu lama2, nanti diambil orang" but in my case its a 'thing' uh hahaha; So if you wait too long for something, there's a chance it won't happen.

So bummed. =/

I have been receiving a few offers lately. I have been hearing advices that goes something like this: Go with what you are passionate in, what's your interest?Frankly, to answer that, I like a lot of things but what I'm passionate about might be to learn something new and be good at it. What is the It? is the real brainwrecker. So I guess I really have to perform Istiharah for help. With the schedule/routine I have now, I'm too happy to stress myself in doing that.. =/ bad huh. Today is the first time, I made my PY1B laugh at me as a whole. Even though the joke's on me, it feels good to hear them laugh. In a month's time, I might not even be among them at all.

a necessary but painful goodbye

may peace be upon you.

painful yet pretty
its a knife-deep feeling
but so wonderful to see
to see you taking your first steps
hear you asking whats next
maybe i just need time to savour this grip
maybe i'll feel better after a kiss
i figured i'll be emotional about this
i dint know it'll be this hard
so i tell myself be patient
to see you off with a cheery wave
for i know i'll have to let you go
someday, you'll have to find your own way.
turn your head around and see
remember me and the things we did sometime
for as sure as your feet would bring
thats how full my heart will brim
these tears i shed behind
of missing you and the joy you gave.
said your goodbye and thank yous.
well i'm here because of you.


hugsandkisses for my K1s and 2.

My dearest buggerits, through all the months we've been through, watching each of you coming out of your shell; even as I write this down, I can see some of your faces in my head. I'll miss you.

Just have to remember;
1) We belong to Allah s.w.t.
2) When we love, we are learning to share; and sharing is caring.

SubhanAllah.

i can be your playmate

May peace be upon you.

I'll remember this day: 23/09/2010

I'm looking for a friend to-day

Will you be my friend and play?

Have a little talk with meeeee-ee.

Build a tower, 1! 2! 3!

Clap our hands, heel and toe!

Join our hands and round we go~

Wave goodbye and thats the end.

Time to find another friend ~

If you asked, was the class messy during the song. It was. Did they run around? Well, some did. Did they have fun? I think they did. So it was fun. like really. I wished I had done this sooner.

I think I'll miss them like crazy. But they'll have to go someday.

SEMPAT!

May peace be upon you

Lampu lap lip berkilauan
Baju pon wow! kalah mak pengantin
Kalau betul nak bermaaf-maafan
Datanglah rumah, muka tunjukkan

Salam Aidilfitri semua!
Its the official night for Syawal 1431 Masihi! (Raya Aidilfitri 2010)

back to last-minute house-cleaning. T.t

wishy washy

May peace be upon you.

The best gift, though, would be a full minute of your precious, busy time, to say a prayer for me wishing me forgiveness from Allah, thinking about my best of health, longevity, happiness and everything nice. You see, I know you are all very busy people, but it'll be really grand, if you could dedicate this day, even if its a minute of it to remember me and wish me well even if I don't know it. You have my advance thanks and jazakAllah, may Allah reward you with goodness.

1 month to 2-0.

cam-uh-rrrrr

May peace be upon you (:



"Light-Bulb." (:

cookies for raya(:

May peace be upon us... Mum is busy making Swiss Rolls (kek gulung) in the kitchen now. Thus, the "stress period" has officially starts, not just for her but all of us.

Just in case some of you are interested in the kind of swiss rolls my mum took orders for, below are snapshots of them with price(s);

yang pertama

may peace be upon us

When the lot of them has just entered the school's compound,
'It' was within my grasp approximately about 8.03am.
'It' was the very first of my Teachers' Day Gift.



(I was sort of wishing some would, but honestly I didn't dare to hope)

SubhanAllah (terharu)~ Only Allah knows best.

always something extra -vid-whoring!

May peace be upon you(:

All in all, like Bucuk said, since we reached all our objectives for the day,
"Today, best jugak." Likewise,

'nuff said (:

how i fell in love with the most unlikely

may peace be upon you.

This is based on my true story.

There is a boy in my class. He joined us in the middle of the school term. By then, all of us are friends with each other (well, sort of). Mummy told me we should be kind to the new kids because they might feel scared on their first day. But we were all so very excited to meet him, we can't wait to tell him everything; what he should and should not do. On his first day, he came with his grandma and mom. They look very friendly yet wary of us at the same time.

I was wary of them too. Especially because, I know the class don't like me so much sometimes. So I wanted him to be my friend.

Our chinese 老師, told me to watch out for him because his English was not so good. I said, "Of course, alright".

I watched him as the days passed. He disgusts me now. He does not smile. He picks his nose, drool on his book and used his finger to erase his letters instead of calling for erasers. And he smells! Sometimes he will start to cry. When he cries, he makes such a lot of noise and starts jibbering in chinese (which I can't understand!).

That's not even the worst part. The worst part of it is that when he gets very upset he wants to go home! He will really, really, really, literally run away from our classroom or dining room or music room and head the door. Even then, he did not stop there! He will go out and run to the direction of his home until I grabbed him and pulled him back. It is very exhausting.

He is in our class for a month now. I watch him play with the other kids. I realised when he get really upset and confused over why he was being scolded or beaten by his classmates, will he then throw his tantrums and run away. Also, he smelled really bad before because the air-con was spoiled and he was sweating. I forgot all of us were smelly too.

I like him again now although he is still very stubborn. His staggering chinese is audible now and even though I don't speak fluent chinese I could guess the basic things he is trying to say by his body language. Sometimes I would hear him laugh. He has such a happy laugh, its hard not to laugh along. and his smile, he has a very nice smile. I think he is learning to understand.

The best thing happened just a few hours ago. He was on his motorbike. The one you sit and just press a lever near the foothold with your feet to move. I guess his motorbike is broken or something because his grandma was there pulling on his motorbike with a rope to help it move.

And just when I thought he would pretend to not recognise me or didn't even recognise me (like he did before), he called out to me infront of his grandma and greeted me with a smile,










































"Teacher Naya!"

SubhanAllah (': Wallahualam bissawab.

"I do believe in fairies, I do, I do"

May peace be upon you(:

After the slight satisfaction of cleaning a part of my room (yeah, just a part, not the whole room), I wanted to do something more. but it turns out, I don't have quite the energy to whipped everything in my real room into place. Soooo, I took the satisfaction of cleaning out A.R.'s room! TA-DA!



looks oh-so-cozy!



sparkly! (sadly it doesn't have a theme):



the kitchen!! absolute mouth-watering temptations!!! *drools*



kind of surprised at how this room turned out to become. (:

Total damage : +-$$ 25000 NeopetsCoins (T_T)


Next stop! (still stuck, at) MY BEDROOM!! have to start spring cleaning now, before fasting fever sets in. hmmm mmmmm hmmm. My job for tomorrow will include taking photos of the kids' work. Will show you people some of their creations, insyaAllah, because I'm super egg-cited of what they have done. Give them the right materials and voila! Something out of nothing, its like magic! Suddenly made me think of Tinkerbell and Peter. haha. like, really (:

this longing to get down and dirty

May peace be upon you(:

the five year-olds work (= kind of proud of them. but not of my background design =/ i know mine's messy. but i'm working on my creative side. these days, working with them really need the left side of my brain.


their work (kites) and my background's working progress..

my supervisor's background and their work (dishes)...

as Blake reckoned in Jerusalem,

“I must Create a System or be enslav’d by another Man’s/I will not Reason & Compare: my business is to Create.”;

my k1s

may peace be upon you.

the buggerits came to school for 1 and a half hrs only.
we played 4 kinds of game and sang the anthem, said the pledge and sang national songs.
at the end of the day, they were given coin bank souvenirs.
such a varsity of reactions. imagine that? haha

it was my first time being in the same room w the nurseries.
most were slow much (with a few exceptions) but i guess at the age of four, anyone would still be awfully shy huh?(;

I'm not sure why but it felt a little bit more rewarding then usual to be in their (my usual buggerits) presence today. nevermind the bone-tired feeling straight after. :x

would definitely do it all again. wallahualam. (:

bridge

peace be upon you.

The Last Air Bender was awesome. yesterday was awesome.
but yesterday is gone...

this childhood of theirs

May Peace Be Upon Us.



After eons of days of Missing In Action, I am back!









WHOOHOO!!







(ok laugh)

It's such an eye-opener how kids wear their expressions on their sleeves. The five year olds I know has not yet developed a complicated mix of emotions (or developed a mask yet). To sum up their feelings it all depends whether they like or dislike or/and when they think something is right (thus, they agree) or when they think that particular something is wrong (and thus, disagree with complains, whines or even sulking).

It touched me to see that most of them are able to care for their friends. Most days, I was let on to see their self-impression of others affect the way they communicate after a fight (atleast one became more wary of the other/s) or a happy incident (they became closer).

I guess, in some ways, I'm glad I could be the cause of those happy incident and likewise if I could intervene and prevent a fight. it's rewarding that way. Yet there are still those days, where it's so hard to reach them or assure them that it's okay, that its a small matter, or that crying won't solve anything.

It seems that I had needed all these lessons from my five-year olds to confront the one person that I might have neglected long ago; me.

My hope now is to finish off this year with them and wish with all my heart they would remember me, not because of my looks or appearance but through good values that they've picked up in my class. Wallahualam bissawab.

a certain seven years old

May peace be upon us.

After seeing too many tears in the first week of school, it's really nice to see more smiling faces before the week came to an end. // Almost as nice as seeing a seven-years-old bowl and hit a spare at the eleventh hour. (:

Funny, they say, laughter is the best medicine, they dint mention the cramps yur face will have later on ;p especially after seeing someone trying to dance-off to the para-para beat. hilarious, i tell yu. xD Have to thank 'F' for that. (:

a roller-coaster ride emotion. and then my short revenge (=
oh, sweet justice! (;

wallahualam

typical

may peace be upon you.










I'm getting the same feeling I have when all my friends decided to join NPCC, and I looked at that CCA grp and wanted smth different. This is the same feeling when I see half of the grls my age fell for the same guy and I looked away and want smone else. This is also the feeling I have to choose not to watch popular game shows on tv just because all of them does.

This feeling jumps and claws at me like an irritating bugger. I know I can choose to be not typical. but I can't seem to shake of the familiar feeling of wanting a different dream. (Not to mention, the years I would have to spend. what if i have children of my own?)

It's all written isn't it.. I've tried to get it. could or could not, i guess i'll cross the bridge when I come to it. still, a different dream sounds as lovely as sour cream.

gottakeepbelieving.

not too hot not too cold

may peace be upon you (:

the weather was nice today,
actually great for laying ard in bed, esp in the morning.

well, actually, i wanna boasts i had a nice day today.

okaybye *catsmile*

prepare for awesomeness

may peace be upon us (:


KARATE KiD WAS AWESOME! Hyakdush!
translation: I din't get I-want-my-money-back feeling. (:it's good)

Even tho I went brrr-oke today, I had the I-want-to-watch-this-again feeling for this still. This is so rare of me. The only show that I can still remember I had this kind of feeling was "My name is Khan" which is like three months ago. HAHAH. Usually, its the oh-yeah-watched-that feeling. instead, I wanna watch it again! Again, again! ((; Maybe its the company (; familiar but different (= ♥family

also, its set in China. a country i din't know i missed (;

the show brings such a heartwarming feeling... imissChina(':

wallahualam bissawab(:

thirteenth ♥

may peace be upon you (;

meet ikan Selar kuning/Yellow-mellow/Purple fin/Blue-face/Stripey which is an angel-fish shaped kite that *Bucuk and I named after we bought it at Gek Poh some time ago. The first time we tried, it flew! (but went down soon after. i think its because the string was too short.)

as for our second attempt at the same place but of a different day, which was today, it FAILED. HAHA


had fun, pretending to fly it though (;

old 'tanah kayu'

may peace be upon us.

It's been awhile since I went to an old place of Mum's. I used to hate gg there. It used to be boring; not much toys, too many shops, stuffy, no entertainment and most importantly no place to seat while mummy went shopping, a definite no-no place for a kid like me xD ... but I like it there now (:Imma Changed Person xD huhu)

Thanks to Pinggan Licin. ;p

The friday, I went to sch, watched "MadeOfHonor", super-hilariously yet touching of some sort. the familiar environment brings back nostalgic memories,too.
But I'm writing on fresh papers as I go. I'll survive(:

Thanks to Bucuk ;p

(:SC,uoystraeh)

let me hear this

may peace be upon us.

meant to be and written
i don't want a love song
and this is one of the reason
a romance turns wrong

when the sun shine
i don't want to be gone
like a lost kite
heartwreck on the shore

the last thing i need
someone to take me higher
the last thing i wish
someone to drop me that much faster

in this heart
a beautiful melody
it longs to sing
fly with the wind

if only they knew
what sets me free
maybe we could skip around all this
but it wasnt meant to be

so i look up and prayed
a rainbow will save the day.

if you say, bby grl it'll be okay

i'm telling you, its not enough.
jack, someone said a grl needs 3As
but sometimes, i think

a little of fairy dust* won't hurt.



'nuff said(:

the malay seminar

peace be upon you.

i have no husband yet i have 75 kids.
the good thing is i dont have to have them for 24 hrs.
the bad thing despite having to allow them to improve on their communication /language skills, i'm responsible to implement 'jati diri' into them as not only a citizen of SG but a malay citizen of sg.

jati diri sebagai seorang melayu.

Jika diteguh oleh orang tua "kau anak kurang ajar"
Ada tak rasa terguris hati hingga tak sedap lena?

i saw freddy

may peace be upon you.

i don't like horror movies. but a certain *bucuk go and dragged me to Cathay to watch Nightmare on Elm Street.

the good thing is mihhtiwemitdnepsottegi.
but the bad thing is I creep myself out (more than usual),
rofl.

anyway, movie updates,
I WANT TO WATCH KARATE KID W MY SISTER NEXT MONDAY!!
LETS ROCK THIS ISLAND PARADISE WHOOHOO!!!

coincides

may peace be upon us.

I rmbr my wish almost eight years ago.
That wish gave me the courage to chop my hair off.
(it was very short okay. slope haircut. oo)

Now, I'm all dolled up with henna on my hand.


Still waiting....













The question is, how much longer will you make me wait?
















alhamdulilah majlis pernikahan dan persandingan Cik Ifa dgn Uncle Banam da selesai. tunggu abg Leng den kak Ila punya turn, next. HAHA cepat nyer masa berlalu. Rasa macam semalam kite smue masih main dgn trolley Atuk. IloveyouAtuk.

first dive

peace be upon us.

If only life is like a blog post entry. You can delete stuff, post up stuff and best of all hit the sign out button and forget about it for a while till next time. Then again, life is a book full of chapters; when one chapter ends, the other begins.............................................

its just so complicated smtimes,

abu dhabi doo

may peace be upon us.

Caught "sex and the city 2" with yvonne and hashanah/

IT WAS SO LMAO BECAUSE NONE OF US WATCHED PART 1

...
AND WE ARRIVED LATE. LOL
THOUGH THERE'S CENSORED STUFF (M18 dok)
THE  STORYLINE WAS ALRIGHT

WORTH IT FOR A WEEKEND MOVIE
COZ ITS 2HRS AND A HALFF HAHA

REMINDED ME OF TGQS.
WONDERed WOULD WE BECOME LIKE THAT IN FUTURE.

HAHAHAH

honey in these pots

May peace be Upon US (:

LIKE FINALLY. A DATE WITH THIS BUNCH OF GORGEOUS GRLS.

IT'S SURPRISING, I HALF THOUGHT WE WOULD BE AWKWARD NOW
BUT WE WEREN'T...




ON THE CONTRARY, I THINK WE WOULD
READILY AGREE ON A FULL DAY OUTING NEXT TIME.



*smiles*





In no particular order - 7years ago;
FROM FIRST-FRIEND AT SEC 1 ORIENTATION CAMP;GUGA.
FIRST MALAY FRIEND AT SJAB; ROZY
MY SEC 1 CLASSMATE; SHARIFFFFF (hehe)
THE PERSON WHO SAT BESIDE ME IN SEC 1 FIRST ASSEMBLY; USHA

TO THE YEARS WE HAD SHARING OUR DAYS AND GROWING UP IN SEC SCH
(although fragmented;)



TO NOW
(vainpots eh?)





THINGS ARE SO DIFFERENT NOW.
YET, YOU MAKE IT SEEM JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS.

I WAS ONLY 12 WHEN I FIRST KNOW YOU.





damn. I feel old.
haha

saya perempuan, awak lelaki

May Peace Be Upon Us

My circle of friends is starting to get a little wider.
But true enough, with more friends, the more difficult it is to stay on everyone's likes.

This is Han Jun and our msn convo box. Look at his DP and mine.
Like two different worlds. alien and out of space.

I'M KIDDING YAW! HAHAHA

♥ differences.

something that distinguish us.

kind words and beautiful nightmare

May peace be upon us,

SOON THE TOUGH IS GOING TO GET GOING
I HAVEN USE THIS MUCH FACIAL EXPRESSION EVERSINCE
"An enemy of the people" Petra, much?
TOMORROW MIGHT GIVE ME AN ANSWER FOR THE MYSTERY

LIKE ALL NEW THINGS, THEY SEEM SCARIER AND HARDER
THESE WORDS ARE THE ONES THAT KEEP ME GOING THESE DAYS;

She our one la. You all don't have/

Bye! See you tomorrow! I love you!

THIS ONE, HOWEVER,

Ms Nadiyah, you very pretty

PRETTY EH?

SOMEONE ONCE SAYS THE PRETTIEST PEOPLE ON EARTH 

ARE THE ONES THAT CAN CONTROL THEIR ANGER.

WAIT TILL THEY HEAR ME ROAR.

BET I'M THEIR NIGHTMARE THEN.

TSK.

dropped dead

May peace be upon you...

I'm feeling what I'm feeling at that point of time.

I'm so _________ I want to throw up.

Again, I'm not brave. I'm just a little less afraid than others.

....

I survived holding a 50kg snake for a whole 2 minutes.

Maybe I'll survive a room full of those buggerits for a day tomorrow.

& the next day. & the next... & the next.

Wishful thinking.

Ya Allah, where else could I turn to?

.. and i'm not a terrorist

May peace be upon you (:

i wasnt really at peace the last few days.
hurhur.excited, much? ask the heart.

Anyway,

Not a typical bollywood love story but still
SUKER! ROFL!

MY NAME IS NADIYAH, I'M A MUSLIM AND I'M NOT A TERRORIST.

WHAT GOOD IS VIOLENCE AND HATRED????

Penat tau main benci2, marah2 ni smue.

HATING AND BEING ANGRY AND STAYING IN THE 'Mrajuk' SIDE
DRAINS THE MENTAL ENERGY, NO?
HAHA DONT LET ME GET STARTED ON THE aftermath OF CRYING.
-.-

TO HOLD MYSELF OFF FROM NOT TALKING TO Someone

 I CARE ABOUT BECAUSE OF ANGER/IRRITATION

NOT EXACTLY MY TYPE OF STAMINA

Kan Syahhhh?
*roll eyes* 

HHAHA

STAMINA TO JOG/RUN/STAND FOR LONG HOURS - MAYBE STILL CAN LA

(BUT RUSTY, giler xD)

I THINK SONIYA JEHAN PLAYED HER ROLE TO A 'T' (;

WE SHALL OVERCOME SOMEDAY(=

DEEP IN MY HEART, I DO BELIEVE.

BLOODY BRILLIANT.

heheh.

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TODAY I HAVE A LIFE =x

xD

(PADAHAL SPENT 6 HRS IN YISHUN -NORTHPOINT)

HAHAHAH

Bolehla tu yerrr~~

(:

to love my own so thoroughly it might hurt

May peace be upon You (:

HASANAH aka SCANDAL aka THE ZOMBIE! VISITED ME YESTERDAY.
FELT QUITE BAD AGAIN BECAUSE DINT MANAGE TO SEND HER TO BUSSTOP.
AFTER A DURATION OF 1 WEEK BEING COOPED UP AT HOME
SOMEONE VISITED ME! YAYNESS!

AND THIS EVENING IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL, INSYAALLAH MY MUM WOULD LET ME OUT TO GRAD NITE.
I'M STILL FEELING A LITTLE JITTERY FACING THE WORLD WITH THIS 'NEW FACE'.
MAYBE IT WON'T BE ACCEPTED. MAYBE IT'LL FREAK PPLE OUT BUT I GOT TO TRY

NO BETTER DAY TO START THEN TODAY, YES? YES!
"A loser is afraid of winning, but a winner is not afraid of losing."
& ONE THING THAT I AM TRYING MOST NOT TO BE, IS A LOSER (;

TAKE A CHANCE. MAKE A RISK.
PRAY FOR ME AS I HAVE PRAYED FOR YOU.
BEST WISHES (:



med time. owh yu frigging doctors. =.=

someday we'll know

May peace be upon US.

AR'NT THEY JUST THE CUTEST ?
I ESPECIALLY PICKED OUT THOSE WELL-DRESSED PETS BECAUSE THEY ARE SO DARN ADORABLE IN THOSE COSTUMES. GRR.
OF COURSE THERE ARE STILL OTHERS THAT I DINT INCLUDE.
NOT BECAUSE THEY LACK OF ADORABLE FACTOR. NONONO.
THERE'S JUST TOO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM (:

btw

I thought you said I wasn't heartless.
I thought you said I wasn't heartless.
I thought you said I wasn't heartless.
I thought you said I wasn't heartless.



I thought wrong.

it'sokay. (':


(Pic: Anna from ShamanKing)

SHOUT IT OUT LOUD! (:

May peace be upon you, everybody =D

HELLO HELLO.
ITS SUCH A GLORIOUS MORNING.
AND I'M UBER EGG-CITED.
MUM AND DAD AND ADIK HAS GONE TO PREPARE ADIK'S POLY ADMISSION.
DOUBLE UBER EGG-CITED FOR HER.
NOT EVERYDAY A GRL GETS TO EXPERIENCE THE FIRST BABY STEPS OF ADMISSION, YES?
HEAVENNNSSS, YEAHHHH

CURRENTLY I'VE BEEN TAKING "xepasone", A STEROID TYPE OF DRUG.
PRETTY HILARIOUSLY SERIOUS, IF YOU GET WHAT I MEAN *nudge, nudge, nudge, nudge* EH?
WELL, IF YOU DON'T, CLICK HERE
NO VIRUS, SO DON'T WORRY WORRY EH?

I'VE BEEN LAYING AROUND THE HOUSE MOPING ON AND ON
WHETHER I'M GOING TO DIE, WHETHER I CAN BE NORMAL AGAIN
THAT I REALIZE IF I KEEP ON DOING THIS
EVEN IF I DIE THEN I WILL REGRET THE DAYS I HAVE SPENT NOT DOING THINGS THAT I WANT
AS IN SETTING MYSELF LIMITATIONS EH EH EH?
AND SO...

TEMPORARY SETBACK.
I'LL BE THE JOYOUS KID ON EARTH
IT'S EASIER TO TAKE PITY FOR OTHERS
THEN TAKING PITY FROM OTHERS.
WOULDN'T WANT THAT NOW, WOULD YA?
THOUGHT SO (;

LET'S ROLL!

miss you much, i do.

Peace be Upon us.

I miss dancing. I don't know what to do about it.

sassy, smart and totally kick-ass

May peace be upon Us.

HELLO AIRBRYBUDDY.

I caught Ms Congeniality II just now. Sandra B. ROCKS! 'Fuller' was simply amazeeee-ingggg. much ♥♥.

&&

I'm searching for a Husband.
(application for boyfriend is officially close)
Since Jodoh needs to be 'carik',
Will advertise soon. insyaAllah.
PENGUMUMAN! PENGUMUMAN! HAHA

this grl of many if

May peace be upon Us (:



If you can make me feel that way, please tell me your name, contact number, address and most importantly please come and love me forever.

what does it take to not be too afraid?